Montage love

i loooove monatge, we should all do it together next year, it will be sooooo fun because even without all you guys it is insanely fun

i realized since montage i am much happier and confident, whether they knew it or not they taught me to love more of what you do etc etc since now school will be less painful with more friends and what is really silly is that from montage i find myself being more touchy feely since thats how the whole montage family is

anyways i might actually have time to draw besides the stuff i do in art now that tomorrow is the last showing of montage

-random thought- since the fying tomato is friends with the mohawk man i may get to know him better since i am already buddies with the tomato...

the other archangel of montage (not dz) approved of the music on my ipod whic is awesome since he is a music guru

i need to write dow all of the random memories from montage since i don't want to forget any of the random silly crap we do

Emotional Chaos

I think i am falling hard for someone... i wouldn't mind but it is also torture becasue he is two years ahead of me in school... and i know he is probably way out of my league cuz he is soo freakin amazing... and talented... not to mention strong... so that alond causes mass chaos near to physical pain inside me...

anyways... homecoming! so exited, no idea on what to expect since the guy i like now... lets call him Mr. DZ gorgeous... i know probably wont dance with me and i will probably dance with any guy that asks as long as it isn't dirty...and i also realized earlier that i think i am basically over HR, shocking i know but he didn't seem to like me back after the summer so... i mean as a friend yeah but... i think you know what i mean

so overall if you couldn't tell i am loving high school, despite its annoyances

Thought i'd talk a little bit to wake up my blog

khyle has taken a little venture because he has not been present vary much lately... it makes me a little sad have any of you seen him around? i miss his bird noises

i think my true constant subconciouses are Damian and Fenrir and my female vamp -who is like comletely in love with Sato btw- and the rest aren't there all the time and i want khyle to come back and join them because he is always good to have around... the others are there a lot but not quite as much as my fav dandy, wolferstein, and girlie girlie
heheheh that was a bit strange...

its silly that now i know who i feel like when i draw because damian does mor like modern, using thicker lines to shade, Fenrir is more of a sketchy i don't erase much type, and khyle draws all the random obscurities that come up and doesn't shade mucg but uses different shades of grey to define color.... just thinking about this in art since i didn't have much to do yesterday but think and draw

GO TO MONTAGE PPL!!! tickets sold at lunch for 6 bucks for us and 7 for parents it is going to be AWESOME!

Fyr's room has been taken over

i had so much fun painting it heheh

-edited out- hey cafalla, we love you, never forget that

Wes

I felt the need to clarify a few things about wes

he is bi, but he like to use the terms 'laid back' and 'versitile' and he doesn't have much of a problem with what people think about that, cuz he is not like omg guy i wanna go talk with them, he is more like: hm, guys interesting but he is much more into girls

-before i told her- fyr dreamed about wes and his new hair style... i swear wes talks to fyrs subconci a ton.... and so does damian but not as much as wes does i think.... i'm not sure yet

i have been feeling like him a ton lately especially since about 3 o'clock yesterday, no i take that back, since kristin and i got back from the mall the other day

music: emo channel on aol radio and 30 seconds to mars

Emo Love

Everything has been going pretty good lately beside the homework factor. i bought 'Demon in my view' at borders from the mall when Fyr and I went just because i looove that book and my tiny library needed a good vampire book.

i love the new shirts i got yesterday: one is black with an awesome undescribable design on the front that is tastefully goth and i don't think mymom will say anythign aout it; the other is green with stripes and hearts 'drawn' all over it. i also assisted fyr in selecting two shirts and a hat, and of her own accord a cd (Blue October) which is really awesome

man we felt so dirty when she came over for a few hours, it was funny yet verrryy disturbing... Wes is sooooo dirty, even Damian has his limits...

my dreams have been rampaging around my head lately, for the longest time i would dream-nothing special- then for several nights after i wouldn't remember my dreams at all or they would be barely worth mentioning, but the last three nights i have dreamed vividly, its crazy

emos are pretty when they kiss...cafalla sent me a pic and it was sooooo cute! i printed it out