Contemplative Youtube searching...

I like youtube.
And Dragons. http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/41877804/ like this one.

you are a googly moogly.

:)

Lotsa stooff goin

bunches of stuff goin on so blogger has been low on the list of priorities

art is cool, and i am learning some good concepts

if you need ideas for my b-day present (party prolly on the 17th) then i will give you some inspiration: i love roses, i like bracelets and necklaces with keys or hearts on them for some reason, i want the augustana cd(though i will discourage that to ppl who read my blog, so other not quite as informed peeps can get me somethin coo) the raconteurs cd-broken boy soldiers- i also love dangly earrings and i have been wanting a pair with light blue stones(sparklies!) for a while now... just some ideas for ya

be prepared to help me hand out invitations

i don't have any clever statements to make your brian tickle so i will stop typing now

mood: tired therefore dazed and lazy
music: my ipod on shuffle.. crazy but i don't feel like listening to anything on it right now...

Past

i loooovvvee finding out about my character's pasts...

one of my dreams last night was really cool, i was a coppery hawk with acrets and i was flying around and hunting, i saw a group of my kind walking through my woods and i called to them in a hawk cry and they greeted me, then it flashed to another scene where i was visiting someone's palace and i was being chased by someone and i was flying away, twas cool and i am not feeling literary otherwisse i would make it seem cooler

i did have something else in mind to say on here... but i am a bit add today so i might type it later

Not much to Say this Time

i feel a really cool art coming on... not necessarily in art but still...

high school is still really cool, going fast the last week or so but thats ok as long as it slows down just a little

sooooo happy it snowed today, i would have had a really crappy day if it didn't

i did have something else to mention but i don't feel like dealing with it right now

Happy Happy

New descriptive poem about how i feel about mr. dz gorgeous... on da of course

i realized that i love all montage ppl. all of them except the witch backstage. but i don't count her.

on another note, we need to prepare for halloween! i need a dandy hat or hairspray, i am at least putting colored gel in my hair for that night... so we need to go to the mall to shop for halloween costumes, i need vampire teeth that will at least mostly stay on and fit my teeth

i took really pretty pics of my trees aroud my house, you will have to see them

Montage love

i loooove monatge, we should all do it together next year, it will be sooooo fun because even without all you guys it is insanely fun

i realized since montage i am much happier and confident, whether they knew it or not they taught me to love more of what you do etc etc since now school will be less painful with more friends and what is really silly is that from montage i find myself being more touchy feely since thats how the whole montage family is

anyways i might actually have time to draw besides the stuff i do in art now that tomorrow is the last showing of montage

-random thought- since the fying tomato is friends with the mohawk man i may get to know him better since i am already buddies with the tomato...

the other archangel of montage (not dz) approved of the music on my ipod whic is awesome since he is a music guru

i need to write dow all of the random memories from montage since i don't want to forget any of the random silly crap we do

Emotional Chaos

I think i am falling hard for someone... i wouldn't mind but it is also torture becasue he is two years ahead of me in school... and i know he is probably way out of my league cuz he is soo freakin amazing... and talented... not to mention strong... so that alond causes mass chaos near to physical pain inside me...

anyways... homecoming! so exited, no idea on what to expect since the guy i like now... lets call him Mr. DZ gorgeous... i know probably wont dance with me and i will probably dance with any guy that asks as long as it isn't dirty...and i also realized earlier that i think i am basically over HR, shocking i know but he didn't seem to like me back after the summer so... i mean as a friend yeah but... i think you know what i mean

so overall if you couldn't tell i am loving high school, despite its annoyances

Thought i'd talk a little bit to wake up my blog

khyle has taken a little venture because he has not been present vary much lately... it makes me a little sad have any of you seen him around? i miss his bird noises

i think my true constant subconciouses are Damian and Fenrir and my female vamp -who is like comletely in love with Sato btw- and the rest aren't there all the time and i want khyle to come back and join them because he is always good to have around... the others are there a lot but not quite as much as my fav dandy, wolferstein, and girlie girlie
heheheh that was a bit strange...

its silly that now i know who i feel like when i draw because damian does mor like modern, using thicker lines to shade, Fenrir is more of a sketchy i don't erase much type, and khyle draws all the random obscurities that come up and doesn't shade mucg but uses different shades of grey to define color.... just thinking about this in art since i didn't have much to do yesterday but think and draw

GO TO MONTAGE PPL!!! tickets sold at lunch for 6 bucks for us and 7 for parents it is going to be AWESOME!

Fyr's room has been taken over

i had so much fun painting it heheh

-edited out- hey cafalla, we love you, never forget that

Wes

I felt the need to clarify a few things about wes

he is bi, but he like to use the terms 'laid back' and 'versitile' and he doesn't have much of a problem with what people think about that, cuz he is not like omg guy i wanna go talk with them, he is more like: hm, guys interesting but he is much more into girls

-before i told her- fyr dreamed about wes and his new hair style... i swear wes talks to fyrs subconci a ton.... and so does damian but not as much as wes does i think.... i'm not sure yet

i have been feeling like him a ton lately especially since about 3 o'clock yesterday, no i take that back, since kristin and i got back from the mall the other day

music: emo channel on aol radio and 30 seconds to mars

Emo Love

Everything has been going pretty good lately beside the homework factor. i bought 'Demon in my view' at borders from the mall when Fyr and I went just because i looove that book and my tiny library needed a good vampire book.

i love the new shirts i got yesterday: one is black with an awesome undescribable design on the front that is tastefully goth and i don't think mymom will say anythign aout it; the other is green with stripes and hearts 'drawn' all over it. i also assisted fyr in selecting two shirts and a hat, and of her own accord a cd (Blue October) which is really awesome

man we felt so dirty when she came over for a few hours, it was funny yet verrryy disturbing... Wes is sooooo dirty, even Damian has his limits...

my dreams have been rampaging around my head lately, for the longest time i would dream-nothing special- then for several nights after i wouldn't remember my dreams at all or they would be barely worth mentioning, but the last three nights i have dreamed vividly, its crazy

emos are pretty when they kiss...cafalla sent me a pic and it was sooooo cute! i printed it out

Vampires seriously control ppl minds....

I think i will draw the pack... dunno what they would be doing but oh well

schools been fun, i looove my new rose earrings!

i have been really wanting to draw but havn't gotten a good chance...

i did have more to say but i can't remember now so i will see you guys tomorrow

bwahahah my subconcious can summon ppl on occasion

High school

its been great, love it so much

now i know a bunch of the ppls names in my art class so now it isn't lonely, we played the name game and the game where you are in a circle and you grab ppls hands and you try to untangle yourself; the second time we played it: before i thought that would be kinda ironic if i held hands with a pretty attractive guy -a certain one- and i did it was funny and his awesome hat fell off

you know the guy i described as that he looked like the guy from my plane? well i think he served detention or something in my art class... he put tennis balls on the legs of all the chairs

hehe i talked to HR this morning for the first time this school year and i gave him a hug and made him smile cuz he was kinda tiered/grumpy bwahaha my methods are working

kristin, i think we will write very, erm, interesting things in greek on your walls

overall, all my classes were enjoyable today

mood: good
music: none right now

My Reward?

I think someone is rewarding my hard work on the iliad with some awesome drawings... I actually draw Pete! and did well!! though i did cheat on the eyes... and i did a good draawing of wess, and three good ones of reah'li, anda few greek soldiers-just beacuse i like their helmets

i made a really pretty fruit salad and i took a pic of it on my mom's phone :P

the iliad is sucking up my time and eating it for lunch and dinner...

Good Times

I don't feel like typing much right now so i'm gonna keep things short so i can work on the Iliad

I hart 30 Seconds to Mars, i got their cd... its awesome it doesn't have too much screaming but is still really intense. There are two songs that aren't listed on the back of the cd...

i'm exited for monday!

i love my new rose belt and greenday journal

Channing Tatum is really hot

I loved Maine and when you talk to me you will hear the stories

I thought i would clarify that wess isn't always bi, if hes attracted to a guy or a girl he will go for it

Music: 30 Seconds to Mars
Mood: Punk

Au Revoir!

Leaving for Maine eeaarrrrly tomorow, miss you guys.

I had a dream last night with Pete and I being the leaders of an emo vampire gang. And i found a new subconcious, a bisexual emo guy that hangs with khyle...It was a rockin dream that you will hear more about.

Lackadaisy cats are soooooooooo fun to draw!!!!

quick art update

Check my da for two new pics i drew today, dragon and -drum roll- fenrir! both include lightning!

30 Seconds to Mars

Man, i realized that i love 30 seconds to mars... and Jared Leto -yummy-. So if Cafalla doesn't get that cd i am because it rocks so hard, maybe even their other one too.

Fenrir told me a story, a painful one, and he tells me stories in visuals so it was hard to write and hard to explain; after a point he would tell me anymore.

Man, i have such a hard time drawing Feinrir, i can never truely capture the personality and ferocity that he has.


My mom thinks i might have broken my anckle... we will prob go to the doctor after maine, it doesn't bother me too much; irritating but no pain upon walking on it -shrug-

ack i have a cough now... i hope i don't get what my mom has right before we leave to maine... that would suck so bad!

its raining
its pouring
i went dancing
in the rain
and ran
and ran
and i feel like i just got in a good water fight

Music: 30 Seconds to Mars: From Yesterday
Mood: Fenrir

i saw a lot of hott guys yesterday... not just cute, hott

aaanyways i had a dream that i wa damian pretending to attend this fifth grade class thing and he needed to get a specific book that was only in that class and he used illusions -apparently- to mask himself to get the book, it was very interesting but he did snarl at a few people hehehe and i think i'll tell you the rest in person cuz i'm not in the mood to type right now...

i took some interesting pictures of my new hair hehehe i'll send them to you

Feeling vampiric...

that will be my new background for my blog... i am thinking of changing my icon to a dandy... tell me what you think of this

i'm soooo exited for Maine!!!

Yay for the world cup!

the iliad is calling to me... its saying hayley, come read me! so after i write this post that is what i am going to do after i take a shower....

sub subconciouses are puzzling... but i have a few that come out on rare occasions... like my punk vampire vincent that was a dragon before he was a vampire.... like haku from spirited away...

we do some silly things while in my basement with dress up clothes and swords nearby

wow... at the flare party when HR sprayed the hose down the back of my neck it was ssooooo cooold... fun though

i did have something else to mention... besides sexy german men -don't bother asking-... but now it has escaped me

Species can be quite a puzzling thing

alrighty i feel asleep on my red chair when i was waiting to use the comp. and i had a short blurb about a half-lycan named Raoul -sp?- cuz he could speck just a little and seemed bipolar but was cool and teddy bear like and he had a tiny wolf tail and he could shift but it was really hard for him to do it on command and he was like in love with me so he would do anything i told him... he can understand all three languages -lycan wolf and human- but could barely speak human... he is cool i am going to draw him

i was thinking of half lycans like Raoul and if a werewolf got bitten by a lycan during the new moon -and the couple days around it when the moon is really small- they would become a half lycan... shorten their tail and more impulsive and more controlled by instincts and emotion and could shift but it was difficult...any questions about raoul or anything just ask

my scanner was disagreeing with me today otherwise i would post my fav. drawings here and on da from my new sketch book

oh, i saw the last ten seconds of a panic at the disco video i've never seen... it was cool

mood: slightly dirty, tired and contemplative
music: 30 seconds to mars and taking back sunday

Sphiroth with his pancakes

we have concluded the cause of death for several people:

leah: drug or alchahol overdose

cathy: mauled by her numerous house cats

Fyr, Rallath, and I : killed in a gang fight involving the phrases -black voice- look at that mutha fukuh, and bring it on biach -long story-

Sephiroth makes good pancakes, if you don't know who he is -freak- then search him on google

once i scan them, i will show all of you my metal dragons and other drawings in my new drawing book

Cafalla, i am trying to draw what you asked me to and i'm actually going to combine cats and dogs... it will be fun

I heart the kingdom

I've been thinking about my nobody character... I figured out that i really really want sephiroth's sword... i wouldn't dare steal it from him though

I figured out i really like saix, he so rox, blue hair and all, only rallath will really know what i'm talking about though

oh my gosh, i had to defeat 1, 000 hearless at once and it was the coolest funnest thing EVAH!!!-pant pant- i didn't even lose a quarter of my health!!! i kicked those heartless' asses! yeyah!
before that i was fighting alongside cloud and once it was over he jumped and was gone.. i was like holy crap, vampire!

Damian

I am now realizing what damian is like... and how he influenced me as a kid, fenrir -the feral, instinctual side but Damian -the one who annoys people and is quite malicious the evil grin side of me...

anyways i have gotten father on my story but i would like to know what happened next... Damian is keeping the plot of the story from me and is only letting me know what he feels like at the time, it feels like he tells me what happens and i write it down quite a strange feeling when you can tell someone is telling you a story but.. ya know its hard to say Damian is ususlly very separate but other times he takes over

i feel the need to explain the subtle difference between Damian and Fenrir, Fenrir is the feral, snarly, wild, physical part of me that is more blatantly mean, but he doesn't talk with words very often i have found... he talks with his body and expression but i can translate it into words Damian is the crafty, crimelord, mean talking, vampiric, more secritively mean part of me, whenever i say something mean think of Damian for he is usually behind it

we have found the new den, the other one was in too in- view to the road, and we also found a luxery den, i was going to invite you Rallath but i had a very strong impression that you were busy... and we found a deer spine next to it and, naturally, we hung it in a tree

-sigh-

-laughs- jon is making me so it is hard to get to sleep at night....

i would die if he saw my blog... but its funny, -this sounds a little weird- whever i can smell him, it calms me down and i'm not nervous or anything anymore its a little strange

here is a pic of my pink/purple dream stallion from the night before last... his mane is more black actually but it looks cool in the picture so i kept it purply

Snowmobiles, unicorns, butterflies oh my!

very curious dream last night... ok where to start... i was riding in a car going to somewhere in the mountains and we drove past a herd of unicorns and there was a pinkish-purple stallion with dapples and a blackish mane and tail flirting with the mares, there were other stallions but i don't remember them

so then it jumped to me riding a snow-mobile running away from someone for a while and suddenly i came up to this rock formation that was like a jumpa nd it was a cliff, so i was like why not, and i went flying off of it and i tried to fly but i was obviously slower than the person chasing me and i looked back to see if they saw me fly, -i think i changed shapes...- and she cought me in midair and we started fighting(i think damian came flying up as a slate grey and brown hawk and saved me- and the next think i knew i was in this half outside room.. very hard to explain and there were two of us -me and damian i think- and there was the biggest yellow and black butterfly that was bigger than most birds... it was very scary, it landed on me too cuz i think it could teleport so when it landed on me i freaked and damian was laughing at me...

then i woke up

Dance Dance!

wow... just wow i am sure you all have heard my exact expression of how i feel about that dance....

sweet nickers i am sooooo happy about how it turned out... the decorations were perfect, i actually danced with guys -hehe parker, richie, brandon and -drum roll- jon- i got a hug i have been absolutely longing for from him...., not to mention hugs from most other people thats all i'll say about the dance 'cause i am sure i told you guys the whole story, details and all

i did write a poem about it but i dun think its good so i dun think i will post it here but i just wrote a second much shorter one...

Taken hand in hand
Passion screamed in my heart and mind
Urging me closer
Our souls guiding our feet
Ending with a fond embrace

i am very very happy for Cafalla too
i will never forget his gentle hand on the curve of my waist and our hands holding each other and his powerful shoulder under my hand and arm... and his closeness and the hug... man...

It is still a mystery how jon feels about me... i don't want to say he likes me 'cause i don't want to hurt myself but i know he likes me at least as a friends maybe more.. i just don't know... i can't stop thinking about him

Mood: mrs Dahcy

fire threatenes Fenrir's lair and graduation

very intense day today... write about it later but i was really scared that it would come closer to my house... it was only about one ridge away

Very exiting friday night and saturday morning

well, i hurt my ankle... rolled it bad at Rallath's and of course we were in one of the hardest places to get out of... but it was fun talking elk to horses, they really respond to it

saw a three really super pretty horses...

wow blacking out was a very eerie experience, darkness consuming you and seing things -don't remember what i saw- falling into darkness... very strange and when i came-to cuz i felt like i didn't know where or who i was... like i was someone else entirely

feeling vampiric and kingdom hearts ish i have dfound soooo many pete-and others vampire pics on this one site omg!!!these rock...

playing with glowing things

what do you think of this for a pack symbol? not definate but an idea since not many ideas have come out... WE NEED A PACK NAME!!!

this is a symbol i was playing with its got two F's for Fyr and Fenrir and it has a C for Cafalla and an R that is semi-facing a different way in it so enjoy!


i have a young lance character that i need color design ideas for, he is the one excaping the bigger bull in my scraps on DA

Tlk and Lorenzo in 'spirit' form

this is my new tlk character.. not my outline i think her name will be Hili though (Hee-Lee)

lorenzo rocks when he is covered in sparklies in what i would like to call his 'spirit' form...

I need my dandy name

I also need to draw my new lion king characters and they both need names on is big and white -possible tattoos-(lion) and my other is probly greyish with cool markings and white toes(lioness)

Someone needs to come to maine with me over the summer!!!

i can't think of african names!

so i was walking into our den and i looked around for the deer foot and the skull in the tree,: i couldn't find either
they hadn't just fallen to the ground, they were gone
so i was like ok....
i kept walking exploring up this hill had an encounter with a buck
when i came back down the hill i was looking around the field thing for bones and stuff
i nearly brushed against a tree with two huge ravens in it
when i came that close they called loudly-which nearly made me jump out of my pants-that would have been strange to see...-

but when i was in the field i came upon an area with scattered hunks of fur that weren't there before and i kept walking back toward the den getting a bad feelong about staying there

and i went in this backish way looking for the ball but all thoughts of that were forgotten when i nearly stepped on a lower jaw bone split in half necxt to a few scraps of deer; realy almost in the den

so already a bit creeped out i looked a little closer looking for the skull or foot and i looked in the tree about next to the skull one and there were two connected bones sitting in it and another one a little higher i was like sweet nickers some beast has been here...

then i noticed three semi holes in the ground that i didn't notice before but i am not sure

my story isn't quite over

so i headed up the hill feeling like something besides ravens or deer was watching me and i growled at the bushes several times it made me feel better and so i was walking up this small hill and i turned around to just look at our territory again and about five feet from me was a fresh deer leg cut a bit above the these bones and things were scattered everywhere around it, it had a bad feeling to it, it scared me a bit

We have found our den... details on the wereism blog

more unicorn stuff mostly

when we get togher tomorow we need to start thinking of a pack name and symbol!

when a rocky mtn unicorn is in its winter coat they have extra thick hair/fur around their chest and stomach

all the kinds have the same basic three horns that i will draw some other time

lets see what else... i did draw a rocky mtn unicorn and a warior one and the warrior is on my scraps

wow this post doesn't have any witty banter yet!

we need tah pimp da ponies yah! and if you didn't catche on that means my little ponies

Species

for our beloved unicorns and your classifying pleasure:

Rocky mountain: thickish build usually dullish colored or grey, dapples are common, longer manes-and or thicker- think draft horse

(i was thinking for either warrior or plains to have ear tufts to help signify their kind, or one have a more lionish tail like the ones in the pictures on this post)

Warrior: usually multi colored but not usually paint/pinto, fierce well-muscled, tending toward having unusual and exotic markings


(i was thinking these guys have the ear tufts because they are harder to classify)

Plains: most are appaloosas or paints/pintos and slim build wispier manes, feathers are commonly in manes and tails

Coastal: very brightly colored and usually a solid color with a separate color for their manes and tails, tending to be smaller in size

new stallion created today... not sure if he will be a lead stallion or not, he is younger though his name is Driz'lahneth or driz for short (pronounced Driz--Lohn-eth)
Driz is a weirdo, fun to write about though

Cafalla, we will always be here for you when you need anything, i'm drawing something for you but i havn't finished

A great way to end a long week

Flare was great, Russel and Brandon are cool, and you will have to meet Walter, Wayne-if Brando finds him-, Wendel, Samson, SamSOHN-think french-, and spirit

had a good talk with Rallath on the bus and we called 'popular people' clickers, don't ask or use it yet please -cept u rallath ;) - and the many times we show affection with being mean and things like that

I am thinking over Lance as a species... but we need a name for the species and i think their young will be called Lancettes -much more later-

I was going to type lot more in this post but typing isn't doing well with me right now...

thinking more of a pack name maybe wide moon or low moon, a creative adjective in front of moon would be nice

I feel very at peace right now, with the near full moon, some of the best freinds ever, and... something else i can't place. I feel like i need to dance under the moonlight and talk of important things with the pack, maybe around a fire, under that stars...

love you guys, peace out

mood: think of the sound of an elk bugling...

Lucifer rocks

sorry for that serieous post there.... But it is true

I hart Aaron/Lucifer he is so cool and not to mention very attractive...

my demon is going well

and i really did have something semi important to say, not sure what that is due to many angels and demons popping ideas in my head

I am deeper than I seem

Lately I have come across many very personal revalations. First lets start with a story.

As long as I can remember, I have been Christian, but not truly beleived. Thoungh i am not sure exactly what did it, The Thorn showed me God and his wonders. I am still not positive about what I beleive, about Jesus and such.

Second of all, I think some of you guys can seriously lighten up. Don't be so negative about everythng, I could stand it before, but now i want to live my live without despair every single day. I just had to get that out of my system, but you should think more about how your attitude is about school and life in general.

Have you ever had a guy (not from attractiveness) send chills down your spine and make your mind spin in confusion about what you think about them? Two guys have done that to me in the last week. and i simply can't stand it that they are older than me.

I had another one..... with my mind on other things I've forgotten it.

Angels, Demons and tigers oh my!

I LOVE the people in the thorn, they are so nice and awesome!

I am able to bring one friend to Maine this summer, not sure who yet but you would have to pay for plane tickets and stuff like that. I'm not really sure when we're going so more on that later.

I had a very undescribable dream last night. it had something to do with the fire deomon with four rings (on his face) , and this angel guy

News

the Thorn is sooooooooooooooooooooooo cool fenominal, i'll spare you the ranting

my sunrise stallion is now officially named Roma and he looks like this:


Fyr i have made your mare, tell me what you want your stallion to look like e-mail or comments or something

i don't work with 6 hours of sleep

sitting next to jon in la :) erin sits behind me and julie next to her so thats very cool

yay, going to the thorn again on saterday probably, sorry Rallath that you can't come...

i'll spare you

I wanted to be in bed two hours ago.

New Stallion

Erin and i made more cards for herd your horses, adventures will be told of later

I am so sorry i forgot to call you back Fyr, i tried later but no one answered

A new HYH stallion was created, been in a couple of drems of mine... hes a sexy beast

he still needs a name
Hiemeth, i like how her brindles came out, if you don't like her pink-ness then too bad, you weren't there

-now that i think of it- 50th post

weird dreams today... since i slept off most of the day, from roughly 7 to about 2 sincei i was sick... i'm not going to post all of my dreams for my sake

in one jon was in the hospital and it took me a while to find his room

had two cat dreams-wont try to explain one since it would spoil the series to those of you who havn't read it-, where i was in a place like the warriors series and in both i was coppery with lighter blondish stripes as well as darker redder ones. the beginning was just a bunch of the cats laying around the thunderclan camp -jon was there, but as a cat named Oakfur- but some of us were bigger and were more like real wildcats; lionheart, whitestorm, fireheart etc were there and firehreart was leading us to battle since bluestar was hurt or something. we were figting -love cat abilities- and this purple cat from another clan was about to kill oakfur and so i attacked her etc and i woke up

that detour on flare was harder cuz i started to not feel very good...

feeling very cat-esc today... -shrug-

Long Update dreams galore

My dream last night it hard to explain... there was a pack of four of us... werewolves.. the only one i really reconized was my mate (happened to be my werewolf character, the one i drew holding the pear with the ponytail) we were taking care of our pup and trying to find a place to live. once we found a place we wandered around as one of the other pack members-they were twins, both black- took care of my pup at the house. we found this huge cave and sarted wandering around it in wolf form and suddenly there was something-can't remember what- that we could tell was watching us preditorialy. and thats the last i remember...

another dream i had a while ago was our pack-except Rallath wasn't there- using cathy's apartment or something. we didn't let her stay long. we were sitting aroundwaiting for something i guess -i was fenrir- my mate was light grey -she was sitting on my lap for a while and stuff was strange when i woke up- and we were just sitting around talking and closing all the blinds so we could shift whenever, Fyr was actually a guy in human form kinda similar looking to the guy on the breakfast club. thats where fenrir with shorts came to mind-cuz i was wearing shorts in my dream

oh gosh... this last weekend was crazy, specially my aunt being a DIRTY ROTTEN THEIF of our cotage in maine.... grrr... we've disowned her sortof... my cousin my age, jen, is dating a freaking 19 year old... and andrew -cough chester the molester with the trailor-stash-- is dating a girl in eight grade, i mean seriously! when my cousin merit -merita- and my mom were lecturing them about chester smoking and their significant others my aunt and uncle didn't say a word... oh well won't go too deeply into that weekend since that would take a very long blog post and i know you guys don't like readin long posts

look out ladies! chester might come and stand in the parking lot to pick up his girlfriend-jailbait-

csaps are long... but oh well... no homework!

feeling very werewolfish i need to patrol my 'territory- so i will be doing that either friday or saturday with Rallath and Fyr if they can... i want to find feathers and bones!

i love my magical ring well i don't have much else to say at this moment in time..

-restrains self-

Mother of God i have a lot of homeowrk to do ... I havn't had any time to do it having grandma's memorial and cousins and snowboarding... rrrggg -more later-

two assignments in math, three in SS, two in science, and two/three in LA

i havn't gotten any of them done and i have about an hour do do them if i want to take a shower and go to bed at a recent hour...

I NEVER FINISH MY HOMEWORK AND HAVE TIME TO SPARE!!! rrrrrrgggggggggggggggg erin, this is exactly why i draw angry things, because i never get to do anything for myself

If i am a zombie tomorow i have an excuse

i did homework all today... starting at roughly 8 still not done

i think i still have my sanity

MY COMPUTOR FREAKING ART SOME OF MY GENEALOGY PROJECT!!! omfg if i have to redo those i think i will die

my cousin's comment when we told her how many ppl, invluding her, will be staying at my house for my grandma's memorial service was"Holy mother of God!"

check my DA scraps for what kept my sanity and what i did during breaks of homework

it irks me that one of my cousins will sleep in my bed... with me... my own personal sanctuary... only for those of special quality in my eyes... and my room...

my goal for tomorow: only homework is genealogy, do the rest some other time beacuse i'm gone be gone friday too

gonna post my dream tomorow if i can... going to bed right now

Silence Before the Storm

waaay too much homework tonight.... arrrrrrrrg

-growls-

music: www.heartagram.com

Titles are hard...

yeah. my grandma died last night.

school was pretty boring today, pretty good at concentrating though... weird...

i feel the need to draw a person

Uhuuugh

i effing don't want to go to school tomorow, i have about a billion reasons why i shouldn't but one essential reason to go

honors applications

i don't feel good, i don't have even a quarter of my homework done, i can't breathe, i got locked out of my house today and it was so flipping cold, monthly visitor, i am just so stressed out..., i never really warmed up from being stuck outside for about 40 minutes...

my mom said we were going snowboarding... i don't want to because of some of the reasons above, major crowds -hate that-, major tiredness and need to sleep for so many reasons, want to draw a lot, olympics, want to get together with friends, the list goes on

mood: stressed RAAAWWWRRRGGG sums it up quite nicely

Hmmm..

i was going to say something on here but now i have forgotten...

you all need to read julie's wolf pack

mood: tired

mood last night: or

I should be doing homework...

but too bad ;)

i was making an ipod thing of fenrir, check my gallery to see it since i am too uninspired to put it on here : http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/28941415/ and look at the rest of my gallery and scraps

twas very fun

i think i'm getting sick, nothing bad yet though... whenever i get sick i get really sick or just get a cold so... -prays-

felt extremely wolfish/Fenrirish last night.. must be that near full moon

mood: alright but snarly again

Blargen

i feel like i've had cafine...... ack i wanna do somethign tonight but Fyr has karate tomorow morning and i dunnno

sunday i'm probably going to denver to see my grandma... su i dunno...

-barks and chases pasing car- -hyperventalates- i need to do something but i dunno what besides friends,..... ahahhdhdfgskdfgklasbdfgn -pants-

mood: semi spaztic

-nearly falls asleep-

today was very draining not bad, just draining...

neither of them were there today, i think mrs ross talked to jon on the phone during ssr... very weird

the plan test was obscure...

i want to draw but dunno what...

so glad the unknown relative thing can be short

sooooo tiiired....

Rallath, i knew you would get overheated someday...

I'm coming for you cathy -snarls-

mood: Fenrirish (snarly but not angry, predatory)

-yawn-

today was actually a good day, compared to others -shrug-

check my deviantart scraps if ya wanna see my other sketches and things -don't want to overload you with pics- but i have been working on this one and i rather like it... Fenrir comforting me after a quarrel with my dad

it is definately not done

Deh Freedom!

goin to teh slopezes comin back saturday afternoon so we better do something cool then!!!

love yur list Fyr!

we are leaving now so talk to you all later

Mpharrg

blarg was in a good mood-really good mood- earlier but now i'm just trying to get this analysis thing done -tis the devil's working- only gotten about one and a quarter paragraphs done in the last couple hours...

he is a sexy dancer ;) -best thing about day-

I hart Andalusians

andalusians are hott
the person looks so tiny! -not andalusain-

thats all i have to say right this second.... mood: see above


EDIT: just started drawing-this is a quick rendition of Fyr- just started drawing and coloring... and this came out wasn't sure about eye color -note eyebrow ring-

Were cat dream

yet another cool dream...

i was this were lion but i had faint reddish stripes like a tiger -yes i was a male- and i overthrew this evil leader guy and for some reason this fat creepy guy with his donkey was racing my friend -dark brown, pantherish- around the palace/mountain thing and i became the leader

i was a much better leader than the other guy was... it was cool being a were-liger...

there was something about trying to keep these chickens in a room in my palace... we had to scare them in but a few i had to hit/claw to get in...... steeerange... lovely retractable claws... and mane...long mane at that... all briaded and nice... my roar... teeth... height... and sheer strength... the ability to scare the shit out of a chicken... or a fat guy for that matter....

I need to run, run for miles maybe but not just as a human... to howl....

wow

not much to say cept i want to draw but not sure what
http://www.deviantart.com/view/24572143/

mood: singing/howling and romantic/longing

Awwoooooooo

-laughs- i just found my fourth wolfish side....
first moondancer, then Fenrir, then me, then the mean yet feminine white werewolfess of my dream last night... i think she ate James Bond...it was strange cuz i-in white b#tch form- was watching him and all his spyness

I might dub her Reah'li WhiteStorm of Fenrir's brother's pack

gossiping for an hour and 10 mins in art is kinda fun...

mood:

Recent Dreams... very cool ones too

-forgot to write about this one- i guess a goup of people-including me- were sortof hearding unicorns to a different place -more like guiding them- and there was something about this desperate old person wanting our help on their ranch... and i remember riding a brown dappled unicorn -can't remember name- and a green dappled one in the herd with lighter points... it was cool

-last night's dream- there was this black guy that looked like a safari guy and he was leading a huge group of us -the only one i reconized was Rallath- somewhere... we were all centaurs! cause we were cantering and trotting and it ROCKED!!!!!!!!!! -this is kinda weird- hy horsy parts were brown with dapples.... dunno about erin... we were actually moving at the same speed as horses do when they canter and trot/etc.

-yawns- marf

mood: wtf?

-snarl-

I HATE how much homework they give us, in addition to h/w i had to go through some stuff from my room.... hate that too.... I HAD NO F#$%ING FREE TIME TODAY! RAAAAWWWRRURGH

on a slightly lighter note i am giving away a big yellow lab stuffed animal and the blue pegasus, and a few other smaller ones... i mgiht give away one or two of the other big ones if they go to a good home and if i can see them again... so, pack of mine, anyone interested in any? i shall invite you guys over to get them if they are wanted-and just for socializing sake

mood: freakin pissed

Caffine

Fenrir likes caffine i realized.... also encourages him to come out mor completely... Learned this at Cafalla's ummm lair. She could only have one person over so Rallath couldn't come

We watched Anger managment then romped around for a while since we got starbucks and subway (we were both a bit hyper but i kept bugging and tickling Cafalla so she became hyper after) it was great fun since i was holding the three furry blankets hostage and a normal one) it was great, Fenrir absolutely loved it romping, wrestling and buging Cafalla

we had a chocolate erm... splurge/party at breakfast since her mom wasn't home, she kept trying to take a picture of me covering two pancakes and coffe beans in chocolate.... and to keep her from taking a picture i flipped the bird whenever she attemted... she might have gotten one or two though....

my scanner is being rebelious so you guys can't see Fenrir 'telling' a pup not to bug him and him about to probably eat someone/something...

What to buy....

trying to decide what i want to buy with the money i got from around christmas time(80$)... thinkin a computor game, either feather or wolf dangly earings(making a rock awesome wolf pawprint necklace in art), hrmmm oh yeah! a big black wolf stuffed animal that isn't expensive(i could settle for any color of wolf), anything else.... if you think of something tell me

the guys on the bus were talking about computor games today and it was freaky, they were talking about roleplay games and stuff... freeeaaakkkky

just Fenrir warning someone or something away, didn't quite capture his personality and features but hey...

Wow, just wow....

If there was a word that describes something as way more than just fun, i would use it.

Flare ROCKED! and there was much yelling and singing involved

First ms ross talked to us about what we were doing that day and it was interesting since alex kept looking at Fyr... we were planning to be in one of the guys cars but it didn't turn out that way-too bad- we stopped for doughnuts, they were very good. Cafalla broung a double-shot expresso and we passed it around and took a sip, sharing all of our germs and hyperness. It was awesome seeing the bighorn sheep less than 5 feet away... pictures soon. we made up names for the people at mcdonalds, fyr was gwen(she was going to be gweneviere) and Cafalla was holly but i used my own name, jon was Ernest hehehhe. Wally, our dear Wally... the guys ripped off his arms and hung him out the window we first saw his leg fly off and suddenly he exploded! we held a short memorial service, and picked up the pieces , we mugged jon then forgave him since he was the one holding wally... heard a lady sing in native american -welcomeing the wolf song-, that was awesome. I got attacked by the prayer tree and saw a raven fly into a different sacred tree.

what else... there was lots of singing involved in the car rides. man, I agree with fyr, it was very hot there, the red excursion was burning up... even though it was like 55 degrees...

when we got back to the school we hung around then cornered mrs Steele and ranted about our awesome experience. walked to the library , then safeway, then Monica's. The way to monicas was soooo fun, -Fenrir was very much awake and active- we chased a whole bunch of bunnies, made a dear jump over the fence, opened a bunch of people's mail boxes (Fyr closed most of them), proved Cafalla has ADD NDD and LDD when she suddenly turned on to a different street and didn't hear us calling her-rolls eyes-, we layed on her lawn for a while waiting for Cafalla, went inside and made easy mac, and drank soda. a bunch of seventh graders were yelling to us and they eventually mooned us....... freaky i know. we looked at old yearbook pictures for a while, jon had straight hair and alex looked rather like a monkey...

had to go at five an i hitched a ride to Rallath's and we hung for a while and played jak x. apparently i am lucky to her.... i'm getting better at the game and i always use this semi-gay guy as my driver... he is funny. Jak X is basiv=cally combat racing, lots of exploding and shooting, very fun.i stayed until about 9:30ish then my dad picked me up and i told him about our awesome flare trip, went to bed not long after

had a strange dream about my dad going to buy me something because i worked hard on who knows what...
i picked up the trash that had accumulated in our back yard over the past several windy days... working a bit on homework now then going to wrap Cafalla's b-day present
If you got this far, congrats! you earn... a drawing from me (reminds me that i need to draw erin's christmas present...)

Insanity and ADD isn't a very good combination...

-twitches- i forgot my genealogy binder at home so i couldn't really work on the quilting thing so i had to either work on homework or sit there...... my ADDness was preventing me from working on homework(which i could have finished all of....) or reading for any length of time ALLLLLLL DAAAAYYYY LOOOOOOOOOOONG!!!!!!!! -taps fingers on desk- -eye twitches- looks at moon then runs off to do something, forgets why then comes back- i think it finally drove me over the edge

i can't wait till flaaaarrrreee!!!!!! -spasm-

'nother Stallion

makin' new lead stallion fashioned from the colors of a sunrise, i think i will have dibs on him

Drostan or ku'lam, are name ideas for him

this is the pic i drew a few nights ago when my female wolf side took over she obviously felt lonely:

thought i should get a new -and short- post up

Had a sleepover with Rallath on friday night... Cafalla must have put something in the cookie she gave the two of us, i could have sword we were high when we played herd your horses with the new stallions hehehhe

last night i got into a very wolfish state and drew something which i will scan and talk about later, i like the way it turned out

not much else to say but i know what i would look like if i could turn into a werewolf/wolf without changing to Fenrir, reddish gold with white 'thumbprints' over eyes, legs fade to white and white underbelly and front of neck

Be prepared for a marathon post

for christmas i got: a snowboarding game, a thing that lets me draw on the computor using this pencilish thing, bunch of clothes, hook up stuff for my nano, talking napolean dynamite thing, several dangley ear-rings,and a few other little things

Rallath, i owe you one since i took Cafalla snowboarding, it was arranged lateish the night before we left, i also thought you would probably have something in between tuesday and saterday night so -shrug- she needed some lessons in our pack heirchy also, it worked some but she still hasn't stopped lying

went snowboarding for -counts them- 4 and 1/2 days of snowboarding and we stayed out one day and played in the snow, i built this awesome snow cave/dan thing in the side of our giant snowdrifts that we get from the plow-person. Cafalla tried to dig one like mine but she didn't get very far, the first time we tried it collapsed because she didn't dig it into a packed drift and the second one (which is next to mine) wasn'yt half as big as mine. i guess my superior claws and paws did the trick

we are creating(anyone who likes and plays the game) more cards and things for herd your horses, actually most of them are unicorns but they rock (i edited Brokenstar's pic from someone els's pic)The Buckskin was colored yesterday and today, in the process of coloring the light blue stallion and the red one with flaxen mane and tail

great dream last night, I was Fenrir in wolf form and i was the leader of this werewolf pack. me and some other wolf (not sure who but she looked reddish brown) it was night time and us two were standing watch/guard and suddenly we could tell that another pack was coming to attack us so we raced back the the campish thing and i started trying to organize us to run and i was trying to get the pups paired with an adult to protect them and sent them off to this river cave place that was safe(far off). The remaining adults stayed to fight. not long after that the other pack attacked and we fought, i shifted to my werewolf form and it seemed to frighten them deeply that i was so big and they ran away

what is weird is that i drew Fenrir keeping watch right before i went to bed... anyways here are a few drawings and pictures
the buckskin stallion Cafalla designed, she dubbed him Calaskis
this is my handsome Brokenstar, this is the one that i didn't color fully, but made his colors Brokenstar's
this is the red lead stallion, no name yet
Fenrir watching the moon rise and guarding his pack from the top of a snowy hill (i made it more blue on the computor) Cafalla wanted it to have some landscape and i changed Fenrir's face but it still isn't quite right